The magic of a birthday. The materlization of energy into matter. Reincarnation. The union of soul with its body. The transformation of Tao into the duality of Yin & Yang. The birth. May 22. My birth.
Back in Armenia, I would await this day with impatience. The magical day when everything around me seemed to float, dance, flourish and sing. The late spring day was always full of flowers, sunshine, and warmth I remember attributing to the magic of being born. As our house filled with lilacs, roses, peonies, music, laughter, and endless birthday wishes & toasts, I felt the unshakable belief that everything was possible on this day.
Today, as I am turning 37, I couldn’t feel more blessed to awaken to this heightened sense of awareness & empowerment yet again. The gratitude for being alive, healthy, embraced with affection and care, surrounded by family & friends, who not only love but allow me to be the imperfect yet real self that I am discovering and getting closer to by day. I feel vibrant and alive, knowing that I am closer to being myself, unapologetically and wholeheartedly. Rumi’s wisdom resonated with me fully: Let the beauty of what you love be what you do. So I decided to fill my day with this magical force of allowing and of transforming dreams into reality. Because I realize now looking back at my childhood that the illusory world I saw all around me was the simple magic of I seeing the reality through the lens of my excitement.
Running on the beach, I received my birthday wishes from the sun and the wind, the sand grounding me with every step. The irresistible power of the waves & the blueness of the water were calling me. I was about to turn back thinking, ´Im not wearing a bikini, that’s not gonna work´, when I dispensed this ridiculous excuse and with it many others that I use to deprive myself of Experience. So I jumped in with what I was wearing. And the waves allowed me to experience renewal at its best.
With them I left behind what didn’t belong to me anymore: the fears, the insecurities, the pain & frustrations, the hesitations & self-doubt. I came out with the courage to be all that I desire to be, with pure love to create my life’s creation, and ready to start my revolution. I decided I no longer felt the inclination to complain about the world full of wrongs. Instead, as I step into my full adulthood, I felt fully ready to construct the world that I so vividly envision for me, for my daughter, and for all of us. After all, today is a magical day, a day I am allowed to experience rebirth, a day I am given the magic wand. So I choose to live the transformation that I’d like to see in the world. Happy birthday to me and to all of you!